Mar. 1st, 2007

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Night-anxiety is gross.  I got tangled up in my sheets and was too warm, and all I can think about is my living situation next year, and my summer job.  I get to do wage-sums in my head.  I worry that a desk job will make me fat.  I won't make enough money to cover the rent, it's stupid that I'm paying rent for two months that the house will sit empty, that's $650 disappearing.  First check due on the first of April: $400.  Deposit, that I owe someone: $200.  Cup of coffee this morning: $1.36. 

I will have to find furniture.  What will I do with the furniture at the end of the year?  I can't take it home.  Storage is expensive.  How much?  What will I do with my fridge at the end of this year?  Take it home?  Will my brother use it in two years?  Sell it?  Store it?  Where?  Will I have friends next year?  Could I get a job as a PSA at the library?  $12.50 an hour, 30 hours a week--not quite enough but I would like it and would be moving around and I could get an evening job as a waitress--but neither of these would be "Good Career Jobs," not really office experience or--

Unsolicited interview offers = scamscamscam.  I don't know if you've heard, guys, but people are horrible, mean creatures and will complicate already complicated problems just by being dishonest, and I don't trust any internet job postings any more, which is stupid, but I hate them all.  Clinically, I have to think--clever, clever scammers!  What a perfect way to find someone's social security number, what a great way to get access to their financial information, taking advantage of people desperately looking for a good job.  Malicious information clutter infuriates me.  As do people trying to take advantage of me.  And I HATE it that anyone could make up so many lies to make a scam look legitimate.

Pleeeease let me qualify for another scholarship.  Please let everything work out.  Please let me have a clean conscience when my parents next tell me how much they are paying for my education.  Please, please.  I'll be good, I promise.

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